i have a job!!!

well i finally have some good news to tell any one who reads this. i finally have a job. at fortune bay as a cleaner and i work midnights. i can't wait to start. i do not know how much i make. but i will find out soon. this job just fell in my lap. i just can't wait. i don't know all the details right now but i have to go sighn the papers on friday and i will find out everything then.. HAPPY HAPPY JOY JOY, HAPPY HAPPY JOY,JOY!!!!!

i have a gun and i know how to use it!!!

hello again. well i have been goot. everything is ok, still no job but still looking. anyways last weekend Mike gave me a beebee gun. it is really big and it has a scoop on it. every one who see's it says it look's like a real guy. i love it. Mike keeps telling me i will want a real one one day but i don't think so. then yesterday guess what happen to my car? well i was at Adam
s house and Jo went to work and when i left i seen a big dent in my back dor and all my pannal on my doors were moved up so i could not open my door. i went to go talk to JO and she was liioking at the back of her car to see all the red pain from my car. she tooled me she didn't know she hit my car. she did say she was sorry. but this is what happened she backed up and hit my car but didn't know it so when she hit my car she keped backing up so all my panile was all coming off. and she didn't even know she did it. WHAT A DORK!!!!

1 YEAR!!!

well it has been a whole year since my daughter Riley Ann Staver was born on February 10th 2008. it was a vary bad year last year for me. it went so fast for me it was like a bad dream. but i am alright now. i will try to do my best to start over with my life. so i am going to walk every day some times twice a day. i am going to get a complete fiscal to see if i am ok. and i will go from there. i still have no idea what i am going to do about a job right now. but i will fighter it out. i will get on with my life. i need to. i can't let this stop me. it took my whole life. i will get it back. i will not let it run my life any more. so wish me luck if any one cares.

NORTH DAKOTA!!!!!

Me and mike went to the city of Fargo in North Dakota last weekend. spear of the moment kinda thing. we had so much fun. it took 5 hours to get there. we drove right past Sarah's house. we finally got there around 7pm and drank the rest of the night at the bar in the hotel we stayed at. we did summer sluts on the bed. i totally messed up my neck. we just hung out and talked about stuff in the room. this crazy thing happened to me when we were coming back from the bar. i fell on the cement floor. slamming the back of my head on the way down. i had a huge bump on my head. i had a huge headache so i went to go look for something for it, when i walked out of our hotel room there was a cop just standing in front of our door. i think we were loud. then we passed out 10 minuets after that. just before we went to bed Mike ordered a pizza. when we woke up with a hang over the next morning we looked out our window and guess what we seen? we seen hooters the restraint. then we looked around the city and all we seen where help wanted sighs. that was one crazy weekend. but i had fun.

well hello to you all. i am doing good me and Mike are fine. Mike got his job and then the next day his boss fired all the temp's so he is a very lucky boy. he is going to have enuf money to get an apartment at the end of next month. so i am so excited about that cuz that mean's i will be moving down there soon. i hope there are jobs there cuz i am going out of my mind. i just hope this year will be better then last year. i don't have much to say so that's all i am going to say. for now.

the big move !

well i am going to moving in my new apartment this weekend. it's upstairs. John tolled me i have to be as quit as a mouse. so that means Mike and his son can not come over or some one will call the cops on me again and i will get kicked out. so i am pissed off cuz he tolled me he had a down stairs for me and he lied about it. so every time Mike comes over he has to get a room for him and his son. i am having a bad day. i miss my kid. i just want to run away but i can't. i just want to start over where no one knows me or what happened to me and my baby. i want to brake up with Mike but i can't. it's to hard. to much there. for me if i say goodbye to him i am kinda in my mind saying goodbye to a little peace of her. and i just can't do that right now. i have nothing to show for my life but urine for my little girl's ashes. no job,no money no nothing right now. why can't i just be happy, have a my own family and a good life. so i am not having a good day today. i just want this to go away. some times i think of her and just cry. all alone. i am writing this cuz i feel better writing it then talking about this. i just want it to go away.

well hello again to u all. well Mike and his son came over last weekend. and as soon as we got home the girl down stairs from me. called the cops on us because Mikes little boy was running and jumping. he was happy and we did tell him to stop but he didn't. then big John came over to give me a letter and telling me i have to wright a letter to who owns the apartments, telling them it will never happen again. the funny thing is the the chick down stares lets her dog bark all the time and playing her crappy music all night long. but i am the one getting in trouble. so i do not know. i think the chick down stairs is trying to get me kicked out. i didn't do anything to her. i just don't know what to do any more. it's not getting any better. me and mike are not getting better. i just don'r know.