day 2 on the job.

well my second day on the job. still a little nerves but doing good. well everything went kinda good. this morning i was showing some one my tattoo and guess who was right there ?? jean !!!!!! so she talked as loud as she could and said " oh i was just going to tell her about your tattoo oh by the way (to the girl next to her ) do U want to see her tattoo ?" so i bitched her out. i tooled her she had no right to tell everyone about my tattoo it was my business who i tell. and it wasn't just another tattoo. it was for my daughter. i tolled her to shut up and mind her business, yesterday she said that every bad thing happens is a gift we just don't know it. so i tooled her this was NO gift. this was pure hell and beyond for me, mike and my whole family. so i think i scared her off cuz now she won't even look at me. hehehehehe. Sarah u would have been proud. well after that everything was good. when i was done with work and went to have a smoke in the break room this girl came up to me and asked how far along was i. so i tooled her i lost my baby and then i left to go work out at the gym and almost started to cry a few times. that was so hard. anyways there is a girl who i work with and she is i think 4 or 5 months and we started talking about baby stuff and oh my god i miss that so much. so me and mike were talking last night about when we want to start trying again and i tooled him as soon as i am done taking my medicine and wait 1 week after so it's out of my system. i thought i could wait for about 3 months but we can't. i want a baby. we are ready to have a baby. we were ready for Riley. yes i know i should louse all this fat but i know now that i don't have to feed my face in the beginning. i am going to work out the whole time. please do not tell me we are not ready this is up to us. just be happy about it. we are ready.