thinking positive!

well the girl who was pregnant with me she had a girl yesterday so every one was talking about today. man, i was so bummed out today. but i got over it. now she will come to work to show off her little girl. it's not fair !!!!!!!!! it is so hard to go to work and every were i go i see happy pregnant girls. it is so hard. ok (think positive, think positive !) ok i am thinking positive in 1 month me and mike are going to try again. for some reason i might have a boy i don't know why i think this but i do. witch is ok that just means if we have a boy we have to try again so i can have a girl. i was just thinking. wouldn't it be weird if we had a boy or a girl and the baby looked just like Riley??? that would be SO weird. but it would be good too. how many kids will we have 2 ,3 or more??? hmmmm well i do not care i always wanted a big family. i will get pregnant this summer and i know i will hate it cuz it's so hot but it would be so cool to show off my pregnant belly so i hope i get a cute one again. cuz i did have a cute belly with Riley and every one knows it too. but what am i going to do if i get as big as Becky or Sarah? wow they were big!! so i will walk and not be lazy like i was before. it will be great. i can't wait. 1 more month and we get to start trying. if the Doc. say's it is ok i mean. we will see.