my baby girl!

well hello again, well i just realized in 3 more months it will be 1 year since my baby was born. that is so weird to me cuz to me it seems like it was just yesterday. to this day i still cant think of what she looked like when she was born. she was so small. she was only a foot long and only a pound. so that was really small. i know she looked like me but the way her skin was when she was born. the doc. tolled me what her skin was like when i was trying to get her out of me but i still can't think about how that would look. i mean she was dead for about 2 or 3 weeks before we found out. she was sitting in water the whole time. so i don't know i guess i will always try to imagine how she looked like that day. but every time i try to i think of a fat chubby baby. witch is fine with me cuz i eat so much then cuz i wanted a chubby baby. we figer if it happens it happens so there is no perisher on us. and if that happens we will do what we have to so it is not so much stress on us and we will get a good doc. this time. i mean i know it will not always be this way. so that will be ok. my dog helps me alot he keeps my mind on him and not on her. that is one of the reason i got him. but when i move to the city's it will be a sad day for me cuz i can't bring him with me. he will be living with JO and the girls. so i know he will be ok. i hope. it seems to me every time i get a pet i always have to give them up. i hate that. cuz i really want my dog. more then anything. i will allways love my baby no mater how many kids me and Mike have she will always be my baby , my kids will know about there big sister.