Tuesday, August 19, 2008

single!!!!!

yes i am single again. i broke up with Mike last night and dropped him at his club house. it was kinda weird cuz to him he had no idea this was going to happen but i tryed to brake up with him for the last 2 weeks. he thinks the only reason i broke up with him is because of his drinking but it's allot more then that. well it all started a little after my baby was born. he stared calling me fat then he tryed telling me i have no idea what i am doing with my life and he wanted me to fix it , he though i was messing my life up and spending to much money that is why i was so broke but when he needed money i had it, i was lazy, i didn't clean my place up all the time lets not for get i am a housekeeper for most of the day so i come home and clean up after him and his son when he has him. so i do not clean every day he put me down and made me feel like i was beneath him. to him i was the fuck up. he tryed to make me feel sorry for him while he was making me feel like shit. i know that is all men but i do not have to put up with that EVER! so i got ride of him. i am happy that i did too. i will not feel like that again. i know he will try to convince me that he has changed but he will never change. i say he can try all he wants but he is an ex for a good reason. plus i really have no feelings for him at all. when we first went out i would get butterfly's in my belly when i kissed him and i do not get that any more. i don't feel anything when i kiss him. so i am glad he is gone. it's just me and the puppy now and thats the way i want it. so happy day. so now i am going to work on my self and feel better about my self.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

I sorry to hear that, but not all guys are like that and one day you'll find the right one for you.

just little ol' me said...

we will see about that.

Attie said...

I give you guts Alli...and you always have had em...and Iv'e known some &%$# in my time and I can tell You they ar not ALL like that!!!!!!!! I was surprised too!!! mine has never been that way to me and never would!!
Take some time for yourself!!